Diary of an angry Christian woman
Posted by simplisticthoughts , Friday, July 25, 2008 10:10 AM
Have you ever had those moments when you have a wave of so many mixed emotions that even in prayer you can not even get it all out? Instead it feels like this war in your mind and usually anger and frustration is what comes spilling out. These are the frustrations though that make the enemy go running for his life- because they are directed at him in such an intimate way I can not even put into words. I am pissed!! I am ticked that he thinks he has a right in my life and a believers life. I can't tell you how much it breaks my heart to see people, especially those I care about feel unloved, feel unworthy, feel inadequate, feel un-special, and the list can go on. Last time I checked, God didn't create something without a purpose. And our purpose is not to be stuck in addiction, bondage, depression, oppression, etc... It hurts me to see people in this state, it hurts me to see the people it effects. And you know what makes me really angry? The fact that I have been given the power and authority to make the change, to see captives released and prisoners set free, but I continuously fail to utilize that authority!!! I am sorry if this blog is not making a lot of sense right now, I am having a hard time putting into words what is aching in my heart right now and to be quite frank, I don't even know what I am doing on this website causing me to be distracted when I should be face down on my floor right now crying out for people and my lack of faith.
God, I wanna be so over myself that I can go up to anyone and tell them how you feel about them and what you see in them! Even those who we think are doing great in their walk with the Lord, constantly encourage them!!! Sometimes when we think we have it all together is when it is one storm away from falling down all together. Believers, we are all in this together- KNOW who you are and where you are in Christ! And don't look through the lenses of the world but look through the Word! When we start to break down and malfunction is when we are operating outside of our created purpose, so if you feel that coming on you- SPEAK!! Speak the Word of God, speak to God, speak to someone about what you're going through- no matter how many times you keep going through the same thing over and over again! I believe in your freedom, I believe in your destiny, I believe in your God, and I believe that "all things are possible through Christ who gives you strength." K I don't know where else to go with this, I guess if you ever feel hurt, rejected, offended, worthless, alone, etc... talk to me, find me and I will pray with you or if you are a guy I'll get you around some people who will encourage you! Just don't give up! Don't give in! Let God be your God and let Him use you!
