Have you ever had those moments when you have a wave of so many mixed emotions that even in prayer you can not even get it all out? Instead it feels like this war in your mind and usually anger and frustration is what comes spilling out. These are the frustrations though that make the enemy go running for his life- because they are directed at him in such an intimate way I can not even put into words. I am pissed!! I am ticked that he thinks he has a right in my life and a believers life. I can't tell you how much it breaks my heart to see people, especially those I care about feel unloved, feel unworthy, feel inadequate, feel un-special, and the list can go on. Last time I checked, God didn't create something without a purpose. And our purpose is not to be stuck in addiction, bondage, depression, oppression, etc... It hurts me to see people in this state, it hurts me to see the people it effects. And you know what makes me really angry? The fact that I have been given the power and authority to make the change, to see captives released and prisoners set free, but I continuously fail to utilize that authority!!! I am sorry if this blog is not making a lot of sense right now, I am having a hard time putting into words what is aching in my heart right now and to be quite frank, I don't even know what I am doing on this website causing me to be distracted when I should be face down on my floor right now crying out for people and my lack of faith.
God, I wanna be so over myself that I can go up to anyone and tell them how you feel about them and what you see in them! Even those who we think are doing great in their walk with the Lord, constantly encourage them!!! Sometimes when we think we have it all together is when it is one storm away from falling down all together. Believers, we are all in this together- KNOW who you are and where you are in Christ! And don't look through the lenses of the world but look through the Word! When we start to break down and malfunction is when we are operating outside of our created purpose, so if you feel that coming on you- SPEAK!! Speak the Word of God, speak to God, speak to someone about what you're going through- no matter how many times you keep going through the same thing over and over again! I believe in your freedom, I believe in your destiny, I believe in your God, and I believe that "all things are possible through Christ who gives you strength." K I don't know where else to go with this, I guess if you ever feel hurt, rejected, offended, worthless, alone, etc... talk to me, find me and I will pray with you or if you are a guy I'll get you around some people who will encourage you! Just don't give up! Don't give in! Let God be your God and let Him use you!
Okay so I guess I'll start this blog off right and talk about politics. Now I am one of the last people to really have a stance on politics because frankly I have not put in the energy to listen to the ranting and ravings of political leaders. And I do take responsibility for my lack of attention to the news and "the issues". I do, however feel as if I have come to a conclusion with this years presidential election. Now before I get the back lash from political guru's, you must know that I have put a lot of thought into this and it would take a literal act of God to change my opinion on this issue. Yes, I know I am stubborn and probably a bit ignorant, nonetheless, my mind has been made up.
For this next election, my vote is going towards neither of the candidates because I am choosing not to place my opinion on a ballot form this year. Let me first say, that I am not against voting, this is not a rebellious, anarchist stand that I am taking. If you really have a passion for one of the candidates, then by all means, vote for the one whom you believe will impact this country the best way possible. I have found that I don't really agree with either candidate and due to my partial lack with keeping updated on all their political stances- I do not know everything they stand for. For one, I refuse to vote simply because one is republican and I have voted that in the past. I refuse to vote for someone simply because a majority of people I hang out with are voting for a particular person. I refuse to vote on the basis of them supporting or not supporting gay marriage or abortion. (Note: I am against both of these issues, but I also am aware that these topics make up nearly 1% of the issues discussed in Congress. And most of those issues are up to each state to decide, so I say let's be a little more proactive in our state government. And yes, I am pointing the finger at myself as well.) To put it simply I have a hard time supporting either candidate- both of them seem shady to me and no I am not going to vote for the lesser of two evils- which I was informed to do!! ;)
Since voicing my choice not to vote I have received several comments regarding the issue. One comment was, "well you don' t have the right to complain if you don't vote, because you never voiced your opinion." And you know what, you are right, I don't have the right to complain, because since when did I ever have the right to complain? God never said for His people to complain when things didn't go their way or when they had a leader who was bad- no! He has called us to fast and pray for our leaders. It is my responsibility for who ever gets into office to pray and fast for them, because I know that if God can get a hold of their heart, He can get a hold of their politics and their morality. I have been told that it's my right as an American citizen to be able to vote. Yes, it is my right and I am very thankful and privileged to be able to utilize that right. As I stated previously I am not opposed to voting, but considering that it is a right, I have the option to take up that right. I have the right to bear arms, but I don't own a gun. Not that I am opposed to guns, but I personally don't have the need for one. Maybe we will talk if the government tries to take over.
I realize that I could go back and forth with people about why I should or shouldn't vote. I am sure you could give me Scripture references and the whole ten point sermon about the issue. And I find it ironic that I go to the church I go to, although I do care about the leadership of this nation. I guess, the more and more I think about it, I could honestly care less about the next President and about all of our rights, because as a Christian, living in the end times, it really isn't going to matter who is in office because the Bible promises persecution. Christians are going to have their rights taken from them left and right, but it's the church that is going to have to work together to make the difference and bring souls into the Kingdom. My heart and focus is more concerned towards the people, of all nations, not just the U.S of A. I mean, what right do we have to bomb people who bomb us? Are our lives more valuable than theirs? Are our people more valuable to God than those in Iraq? I know it's a tough line to walk because we can't allow them to keep coming over here and killing all of us, but when we retaliate, are we any better? Has it really solved anything?
I read this book called "The Irresistible Revolution" and although I don't agree with all of his theologies and ideologies I did agree with several really profound thoughts of his. One statement he made was in regards to 9/11. He said instead of the church offering refuge to those in pain and in need, we instead banded together in patriotism. When the country really needed God to be their refuge, we just waved our red, white and blue. He worded it a whole lot better than I did, but you get the point. Sometimes our allegiance to the flag outshines our most important allegiance and that is to God. Okay so I am realizing that I am getting off on a whole different tangent, so I am going to conclude. A lot of you may think I am naive, ignorant, maybe brilliant (only from those who may be equally minded, lol) but this is just my stance on the issue. So when everyone is out this November punching their holes into their ballots, I will be doing God knows what, hopefully praying.
Well it looks like I have succumbed to the world of eblogging, despite the fact I have been posting my opinions and blurbs on Myspace for years now. I suppose now I can channel all of my thoughts into one arena of voices and opinions. It is pretty neat that we live in an age where we can be so explicitly open about our views and opinions and post them for millions of eyes to see. Which in and of itself can be a curse, because there are many opinions out there that I could honestly care less to read or hear- every now and then though you stumble across something that moves your heart and provokes a string of thoughts and emotions. Those are the ones that make this whole open ended, uncensored world wide web worth it all.
I really have no organized objective or theme to this whole blogging thing, maybe that will happen as I continue to write and spill out my ideas on this online canvas. I guess this is my introduction, as with any intro I suppose you are waiting for some sort of outline of what to expect, otherwise it would be a waste of my time to write useless nothing on here and benefit no one, except maybe myself. Well I guess you can expect theological views and insights, frustrations about life and religion (yes, I said religion. Anything where man is involved can be frustrating but also encouraging, so don't except that statement as pessimism) you can expect themes that God is teaching me on or growing me in (right now He has me on authority, unbelief, and learning to forfeit my rights- all of them!), you can expect my joys and triumphs en wrapped with some cool memories and divine encounters, you can expect ministry joys and trials...so I guess in a nutshell I just described life in general. ha ha!
I do enjoy stating my opinion whether I am right or wrong, it usually finds itself in the ears of those on both sides of the fence, wanted or not. LOL I think I am going to enjoy this blog spot, ha ha! Maybe you will too, if not, well can't help you there. Man God is good! He really should have taken away my ability to speak, lol, I am learning that whole silence is wisdom philosophy. Well I hope this introduced you into my chaotic world of thoughts, they are quite scattered and don't have much of pattern to them, so hopefully I can get them to flow together into something readable for the sake of those trying to grasp what I hope for them to grasp. Ah, until next time...til I decide to distract myself even more so.
